last day as a highschooler

 hiii


as we stepped out of the dewan on 5th of March 2024, we cant longer abuse the "highschool student" title.

habis paper account, kitorang terus keluar dewan and tangkap gambar dengan cikgu mamar. it was such a weird complexion of feelings tbh. rasa happy sebab dah habis spm. the stress and pressure semua habis. but at the same time, rasa sedih juga la nak tinggalkan sekolah. knowing that ill never see these faces anymore is such a relieve tapi cam sedih gak ah kan? (aku doakan the best for every one terutamanya yang baik baik and yang tak baik dengan aku tu haha)

sekolah ni macam comfort one aku tau. i mean, 13 tahun pergi sekolah. and suddenly im not gonna go to school anymore? 

so sejujurnya aku takut nak keluar dari comfort bubble aku. and aku not ready to break habit aku, nak tukar routine. imagine jumpa cikgu and classmate yang sama for 2 1/4 years.

kalau boleh nak jadi budak sekolah je sampai mati sebab malas nak fikir tanggungjawab lain.


annndddd, the highlight of the day is.. kitorang naik mrt pusing pusing KL. (yes gi kl jela sebab tu paling dekat and boleh naik mrt. 15-20 mins dah sampai kalau train ikut jadual). we went to MyTown and then sunway velocity and mytown again. comel do kitorang tangkap gambar kat photobooth. pastu kitorang makan jolibee (aly belanja). oh aku makey auntie anne (all tiime fav). also, i bought a small bouquete of flowers for aly.

 the mrt ride back home (again) flooded me with such a complex emotions. happy sebab kitorang enjoy ourselves sooo much and it was a perfect way to wrapped up our highschool life. tapi sedih sebab lepas kitorang turun from mrt tu, tak sure dah bila boleh jumpa lagi. apa apa pun, im thankful for the fact that im surrounded by amaizing people during my highschool life.


(gambar menghadap kl central punya skyline sebenarnya. tapi hari hujan. so tak nampak pape)


photobooth pic




tons of thanks to cikgu cikgu for teaching me. ciikgu normarziana as guru kelas, my friends and especially my family members for supporting me emotionally and most importantly financially.


however, i am beyond excited to see where the wind blows me for 2024..

i hope something good awaits for me.

bring it on adulthood..


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