letters from the vault

 this is an overdue post. i am now currently @ uia, waiting for iftar time. today is my first day of my second sem in uia.  of course, first week will always be hectic due to manual registration, i was dead-ass tired from the endless walking from kulliyyah to kulliyyah. but better than sem 1 la. ok, ive gotten my result ..back in 26 of february. yep.. few days ago. but as i said, i was too busy to write. lets begin with my expectation. honestly speaking, i dont know what to expect. my carry marks were just so-so. Not just that, i was being far too kind to myself because i had not the best time adjusting here. so i kind of.. "its okay bat, rest now you are so tired" BUT MAYBE BECAUSE I AM. maybe i expected some B+. A and A-. i expected 2.9... or 3.5.... or 3.67...... but anw heres my result  i am tooo grateful for this result. alhamdulillah. but i still feel like i can do better. lets just hope that i get the numbers up this semester yea. maybe i have underestimated myself...

yesterday, i wrapped up my semester one for my LLB journey. 1 sem down, 7 more to go.  this semester is pretty.. confusing.... a "try and error" sem.  The entire sem is just me figuring things out. but i guess it's better that i do that now, rather than tunggu sem lain right? at least, at the very least, i already know what strategy i will implement next semester. given the name is try and error semester, my carrymarks were just so-so. not just that, i dont feel like i do well for my finals either. apa apa pun resultnya, aku reda.  aku totally could have done better. tapi takpe. biasalah pasang surut belajar. first timer pulak tu kan. jujur cakap kecewa. tapi tak apa. benda pun dah jadi.  just do better next sem, bat.  anyway heres a screenshot of our photo post-finals. 4 out of six are asidians btw hehe

oh dear diary.. i am halfway through my final weeks.  and it was not as relieving as i thought it would be. i am haunted by the nonsense that i wrote in my buku jawapan. sometimes i still recall more brilliant ideas that i shoulfve wrote. tapi takpe. semoga lebih semangat  tapi tah la i feel hopeless la for my first semester ni.  my carry mark does not reflect the effort that i put in, my test mark are hell of a kind, my finals sucks. i dont even know if its going to continue looking like this man ts is stresssing me uppp also i met a boy. if this isnt my downfall story.. 

2025 was a series of answered prayers. I often write about how sad or devastated I am.. or how adversely affected I am thru out 2025. but the reality is... i was blessed. really.  2025, saya paling bersyukur untuk keluarga saya. saya paling bersyukur kerana Allah masih pinjamkan ibu bapa saya kepada saya. 2025 transformed me into a person that cling A LOT to my family.  January, I started my second (and final) semester for foundation a.k.a the best era of my life. I was partially clueless on the industry but my course started to feel a lot more natural on me as compared to sem 1. The journey was a whole rollercoaster ride. I started to value my time there.  "How I wish I would not have to leave this place", God knows I dont mind being stuck there forever. The lecturers are nice, my family is happy, I am happy with my housemates, and I have a good support system there. And me myself am doing well there. I have never felt happier. Which was weird. Because this time around, ...