little update on 1st and 2nd week of spm

 hi,

time past like wind and i got caught up by it. lah tibah. ok gini, rupanya dah 5 paper aku sat for. gila doh. dah la macam aku tak prepare langsung. tahu tahu habis spm sia camni.


honest review la en spm ni..

bm -7/10

paper senang gak ah but definitely mencabar. bahasa melayu klasik aku tibai. karangan alhamdulilah takde format


eng- 4/10

wtf was that. first and foremost, mood aku memang dah hilang ah sebab listening punya  paper memang out.. pastu paper essay pun cam cibai 


sejarah - 3/10

ha paper ni aku memang depend on kbat je. apa yang aku baca satu haram pun tak masuk. penat do study. aku rasa kecewa gila PASTU RUPANYA PAPER NI DAH LEAKED. 


maths- 5/10

hm biasa ah maths aku trials pun C je ritu. cuma sedih ah sebab lepas result trials keluar, aku memang hari hari buat latihan maths tau sebab kiranya macam final push la kan nak score A for spm. sekali menghampakan doh. aku rasa macam betrayed.  malam paper maths tu aku nangis teruk gila kat bapak aku.


agama- 6/10

ok, aku serik sebab percaya ramalan untuk sejarah tu kan. so untuk paper agama, aku baca semua. tapi waktu tak mengizinkan. form 4 je aku sempat baca semua. form 5 60% aku baca semua. 

kecuali sirah. sirah je aku decide untuk ikut ramalan. and guess what.. ramalan tu 100% SALAH. satu pun tak keluar. im so glad aku baca yang lain. cuma untuk sirah tu memang total lost ah 20 marks.


ok setakat ni itu je paper yang aku dah ambik. cumanya aku tak sangka. dulu selalu cakap, "we kita nak spm dah". 

lah, sekali nak habis dah spm. 4 more subject to go.. and we're done.


Ya Allah, walaupun banyak gak obstacle untuk aku jawab spm kalini, aku bersyukur sangat sebab sekurang kurangnya aku could comfortably study and seat for it. thankyou Allah.


sekarang ni aku just hoping for the best je sebab kalau ikut dari cara aku menjawab.. memang macam tak boleh score straight A....

apa apa pun resultnya, aku reda.  maybe. 


i mean, as you could see, takde satu paper pun aku cook. AKU YANG GOT COOKED INSTEAD.


also, one of the best decision aku buat untuk spm szn ni was buat a twitter account specially to tweet about #SPM2023. i had fun tweeting there. got some moots also.


okay, see u in the next entry. which i will type it out during late late night, shuffling my playlist on spotify (i am @batrisyiadelaila on spotify - and any other social media platforms), seating near my kitchen island, sambil layan perasaan. 


k bye yall ttyl



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